So much has been going on in the last couple of days and as things sink in, there is one more stickler that comes to mind.
No matter how much someone may piss me off or want to write me off, I have NEVER thrown up into their face the things I've done for them. Even in parting of the ways, I have NEVER EVER uttered the words, after all that I've done for you this is how you treat me? ... NEVER! I do for others because I want to and not EXPECT anything in return. And most of all, NEVER, even in a moment of anger, EVER thrown up all that I've done for someone.
Yes, my buddy was hurting and angry ... I understand that. I hurt him ... I get it! But to bring up the laundry list of what he's done for me to prove a point ... hard to swallow. My thought was to just give the things back to show him that I can live without them. But I'm not going to. It would be childish.
I will only say this in my defense. I too have done things for him! I won't list them cause it's really not important. I did for him because I wanted to and expected nothing in return. If he would look back into our relationship, I am positive he will see what I've done for him, maybe not on the scale he's done for me, nevertheless I have given to him freely ... the most important, loving him! If this doesn't speak volumes about me then, yes, I am a user and not your friend.
Revised 01/06/11
Revised 01/06/11
Unfortunately we do not know each other. But in reading your blog I am in pain for you. I will state this in simple terms for your consideration.
ReplyDeleteIn my counseling experience I see a classic case of someone (your friend) who has attempted to buy your friendship and when you stepped out of line has decided that you are an inconvenience and burden. You stated that on a social network his wish for a partner was that of a "friend with benefits". All I can say is that here is your reality. You were nothing more than a benefit as long as you behaved in the way he expected. Your friend is self-serving and individuals like this are incapable of caring, let alone loving.
I wish you luck and hope that you will be able to come to terms with your relationship, not matter how it turns out.