Since Mark’s departure and the fact that he still owes me for his share of rent, I’ve been towing with whether or not to pursue collecting what he owes. Initially, I called and text Mark. He did not respond to either. A few days later I mailed him a letter requesting payment. He did not respond nor make good on his debt. I then decided to mail him a notice of my intent to pursue collecting his debt through the court system. By this time I was thoroughly pissed!
One morning while commuting to work, during which I take time to commune with God, I was talking to Him about Mark and told Him that I was really pissed and need help in resolving what had happened … that Mark’s failure to be honest with me and pay his debt has hurt me emotionally, as well as financially. And during this conversation I came to the point where I just didn’t want to deal with it anymore, threw up my hands, and turn Mark over to God … I was over it! Then about two weeks later my friend, Robyn, gave me some wise advice.
A few days after my commune with God, while driving home from my friend, George’s house, I felt strongly compelled to forego pursuing my law suit against Mark. And for the next few weeks I struggled with this compelling idea, and at every turn this small voice kept insisting that I need to let this go and forgive the debt. Then the other day while at work my friend, Robyn and her husband, stopped in to do a little shopping.
During my conversation with Robyn, she brought up Mark’s name and wondered if I had heard from him. I responded, no, he’s not contacted me nor responded to my request to settle his debt. I then proceeded to tell her that I was struggling with the idea of taking Mark to court. I did not tell her about this compelling idea to just let the whole issue go. Anyway, Robyn simply looked me in the eye and said;
“you followed your heart, you paid it forward, and now it’s time to let it go. “You’ve done all that you were called to do, therefore forgive and move forward.” (paraphrased) I have to admit that I was spooked! Was this another and more direct message for me to heed the compelling idea to let this debt with Mark go?
That evening I decided to let the debt go and just allow God to take care of Mark. Upon doing so, emotionally, I felt this calm come over me and the burden of the debt lifted from my shoulders … for the first time in three weeks I felt at peace!
Yes, Mark’s disregard to pay his debt has caused me financial hardship. However, I don’t regret paying it forward by helping Mark out in his time of need. On the other hand, as far as Mark is concerned, I know that our paths should never cross again … Mark has thoroughly burned his bridge between he and I, and I’m totally good with this. One day Mark will have to answer for this. Meanwhile, I’m moving forward … it is what is was!
One morning while commuting to work, during which I take time to commune with God, I was talking to Him about Mark and told Him that I was really pissed and need help in resolving what had happened … that Mark’s failure to be honest with me and pay his debt has hurt me emotionally, as well as financially. And during this conversation I came to the point where I just didn’t want to deal with it anymore, threw up my hands, and turn Mark over to God … I was over it! Then about two weeks later my friend, Robyn, gave me some wise advice.
A few days after my commune with God, while driving home from my friend, George’s house, I felt strongly compelled to forego pursuing my law suit against Mark. And for the next few weeks I struggled with this compelling idea, and at every turn this small voice kept insisting that I need to let this go and forgive the debt. Then the other day while at work my friend, Robyn and her husband, stopped in to do a little shopping.
During my conversation with Robyn, she brought up Mark’s name and wondered if I had heard from him. I responded, no, he’s not contacted me nor responded to my request to settle his debt. I then proceeded to tell her that I was struggling with the idea of taking Mark to court. I did not tell her about this compelling idea to just let the whole issue go. Anyway, Robyn simply looked me in the eye and said;
“you followed your heart, you paid it forward, and now it’s time to let it go. “You’ve done all that you were called to do, therefore forgive and move forward.” (paraphrased) I have to admit that I was spooked! Was this another and more direct message for me to heed the compelling idea to let this debt with Mark go?
That evening I decided to let the debt go and just allow God to take care of Mark. Upon doing so, emotionally, I felt this calm come over me and the burden of the debt lifted from my shoulders … for the first time in three weeks I felt at peace!
Yes, Mark’s disregard to pay his debt has caused me financial hardship. However, I don’t regret paying it forward by helping Mark out in his time of need. On the other hand, as far as Mark is concerned, I know that our paths should never cross again … Mark has thoroughly burned his bridge between he and I, and I’m totally good with this. One day Mark will have to answer for this. Meanwhile, I’m moving forward … it is what is was!
Until Tomorrow …
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