My bladder therapy went well! … Yeah, if you believe this I’ve got some swamp land in Florida for sale. (LOL)
At 3:45 pm I was handed a pee cup for a specimen, entered the treatment room and was asked to strip from the waist down ... talk about loosing your dignity! A few seconds later the nurse fully gowned and masked (like Darth Vader … Luke, I am your mother) came in and told me to lay back, spread my legs and take a deep breath as she proceeded to insert this long catheter. Sure loved the burning sensation … NOT! My ass came up off that table and my toes curled while the nurse keep telling me to relax ... yeah, relax my ass! My privates were being violated and I'm to relax?
Not to freak you out, but there are those who are into catheter fetishes. Not this guy! O hell no! Ain’t no way could I or would I ever get into cath play. Anyway, once the catheter was in place in went 50cc of poison and the catheter was pulled out. Would have to say that inserting the catheter was more uncomfortable than having it pulled out. Either way, it wasn't comfortable! Once done I couldn’t wait to get out of there. And to think that I’ve got five more weeks of treatments … hm!
Today, I feel like crap ... nauseous, headache and extremely exhausted. Actually, it feels kind of like having a severe case of the flue. Nonetheless, I got up this morning and dragged myself into work … at least there I could focus on my job rather than the physical discomfort I was feeling. But by time I was to leave I was ready, came home and went straight to bed and slept.
I tell you this much, I am not going to allow this to have power over me! Instead, I am going to work and live each moment of my day to the fullest cause life’s way to short to allow cancer to rob me of what life I have left. Therefore, today IS gonna be a GREAT day!
Last but not least, as fearful as I was about going through this alone, I can put my fears aside … my buddy and friends lined up behind me with their help, thoughts of encouragement and prayers. Getting to this point was scary, but knowing that I was not alone made all the difference in the world. Thank you to all for having my back.
Until Tomorrow …
At 3:45 pm I was handed a pee cup for a specimen, entered the treatment room and was asked to strip from the waist down ... talk about loosing your dignity! A few seconds later the nurse fully gowned and masked (like Darth Vader … Luke, I am your mother) came in and told me to lay back, spread my legs and take a deep breath as she proceeded to insert this long catheter. Sure loved the burning sensation … NOT! My ass came up off that table and my toes curled while the nurse keep telling me to relax ... yeah, relax my ass! My privates were being violated and I'm to relax?
Not to freak you out, but there are those who are into catheter fetishes. Not this guy! O hell no! Ain’t no way could I or would I ever get into cath play. Anyway, once the catheter was in place in went 50cc of poison and the catheter was pulled out. Would have to say that inserting the catheter was more uncomfortable than having it pulled out. Either way, it wasn't comfortable! Once done I couldn’t wait to get out of there. And to think that I’ve got five more weeks of treatments … hm!
Today, I feel like crap ... nauseous, headache and extremely exhausted. Actually, it feels kind of like having a severe case of the flue. Nonetheless, I got up this morning and dragged myself into work … at least there I could focus on my job rather than the physical discomfort I was feeling. But by time I was to leave I was ready, came home and went straight to bed and slept.
I tell you this much, I am not going to allow this to have power over me! Instead, I am going to work and live each moment of my day to the fullest cause life’s way to short to allow cancer to rob me of what life I have left. Therefore, today IS gonna be a GREAT day!
Last but not least, as fearful as I was about going through this alone, I can put my fears aside … my buddy and friends lined up behind me with their help, thoughts of encouragement and prayers. Getting to this point was scary, but knowing that I was not alone made all the difference in the world. Thank you to all for having my back.
Until Tomorrow …
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