What would you do if it was suggested you may have fallen in love with the wrong person?

Today’s counseling season was long (2hrs.), mentally challenging and exhausting. Honestly, it wasn’t a comfortable season. Nonetheless, for the next three weeks the focus will be about the relationship I’m currently in and what it is doing to me physically, mentally and emotionally. In other wards, my counselor believes that what is currently going on in my life will help me come to terms with what has happened for the past four years. Hmm! Can we say reverse physiology? Maybe not!

Back to the opening question. The focus today was on my relationship history … what I don’t know vs. what I do know about the individual I’m involved with. Honestly, what I don’t know outweighs what I do know. Can I resolve what I don’t know? No, I can’t! I can only deal with what I do know which may or may not shed light on what I don’t know.

What I do know (without outside influence) is probably the root cause for my uncomfortableness of the relationship. And if I seriously look at the relationship realistically, I may find that I’m in love with the wrong person … Ouch! Key to this thought, his expectations in the relationship … “you are possibly just an emotional release without regard to your emotional needs”. His words, not mine!

I am to remember and ponder this saying till my next season; “Past behavior is a good indicator of current behavior.”

My assignment till next week is to clear the air about an unacceptable "condition" that has been placed on the relationship ... it's about control which I silently accepted with  great disdain, but didn't say anything for fear of further rejection.

Until Tomorrow ...