Last Sunday a disgruntled friend came to my place of employment. While hanging signs and at the top of the ladder, I suddenly here this voice … “what the fuck is wrong with you?” I thought to myself, who in hell is this?

As I looked down staring up at me was my “friend” yelling at me at the top of her lungs. To quiet her I climbed down the ladder and once on solid ground asked if she would like to go outside … by this time she was in a craze, verbally accosting me for something I had no idea. I tried to head for the door but the location I was in she had me cornered and continued her tyrant.

Her issue or should I say issues … I was selfish, uncaring, a user, an asshole, a prick, a faggot, and the list goes on. Amidst the verbal attacks, it became clear that evidently I  failed to keep a commitment I had made. Honestly, I don’t remember the commitment since I knew that I would be on vacation, during which I planed just have some me time. Therefore, a week before my vacation I cleared my calendar, particularly on the day my buddy and I was to go out of town. Well, evidently, this was the day which I was supposed to spend time helping her. Again, I don’t remember making such a commitment and had I done so I would have rescheduled her as well. But, like I said, I had no clue and remembrance of the commitment ... I am not the kind of guy who doesn't keep my commitments. If I can't I will certainly let the person know.

Unbeknown to me, on the isle behind me, my boss was standing and listening to this acrostic conversation. He came around the corner and asked that we take the noise and conversation outside. At that time she turned to inform him that I was being rude, that I shouldn’t be employed by Kmart, and that she was going to complain to corporate then stormed out of the store. Immediately, I was taken into his office and was told that under no circumstances was I ever to have my friends come to the store if they cannot behave themselves to which I agreed. An hour later I was back in my bosses office. My friend had contacted corporate complaining how bad my personality and service was while she was in the store.

Long story short, by the end of my conversation with my boss and corporate I had been written up for poor behavior and placed on a three day suspension and escorted out of the building. I WAS LIVID! Had my friend been standing outside, god only knows what would have transpired … If nothing else, I probably would have bitch slapped her cause being written up, as well as suspended for something that I was not in the wrong for … yeah, I was some kind of LIVID! ANGRY to be exact!

I understand that corporate has to protect itself. Unfortunately, at Kmart, the customer is “ALWAYS” right … there is no ands ifs or buts about this. If a customer calls corporate on an employee, the employee is automatically at fault and will be disciplined accordingly. Well, needless to say I was embarrassed, humiliated, disgusted, and very angry over what had happened. My brain was in overload and on fire!

Unfortunately, while on the way home I was checking my emails at which time I read my buddies email in response to the one that was mistakenly sent to him. In it I wrote; “I give up on you.” His response; “Ok”. It is from this point forward that things took a deeper noise dive which lead to the events of the past week between he and I. Boy, do I regret this!

Yes, I handled the whole situation poorly … I allowed my emotions to bleed into his response and took it out on him. For this I was wrong! And now the price I’m paying, along with his response swirling through my thoughts following my outburst with him is difficult for me to swallow. The entire mess is so messy because emotions on both sides have been deeply bruised that resolving it will be difficult and probably impossible.

As for my friend … it’s over! I have yet to contact her to tell her so. But this I will do in time. I tell ya!, my track record with friends has been a dozy … in the past four years a total of five so called friends have either hurt me physically and/or emotionally. And honestly, this has had a negative impact on my emotions to the point where it is difficult for me to really trust someone … I’m to the point where I’m fearful to make friends. I guess it safe to say, the impact that these five individuals have had on me still lingers and echoes in the back of my mind … I’m no good, a user, a selfish person, I don’t care about anyone but myself, I’m not a friend, and the list goes on.

Quite honestly, I may be all that I’ve been labeled. I don’t think so, but my buddy reinforced it by telling me some of the very same things. Ouch! I wish I could fix this, but honestly this mess will probably be the unfixable one, in which case I will loose my buddy.

Until Tomorrow ...