Relevance Isn’t Necessarily Reality

Ever come to where you find out that you weren’t all that you thought you were in someone’s life? What you share with them wasn’t really all that relevant? And who you are to them wasn’t who they really wanted you to be? Reality can sure be devastating at times and when it smacks you in the face, the hurt is beyond imaginable.

There is nothing like being told you are there in someone’s life only when needed. Otherwise, to expect more than that is simply not welcomed. These words spoke volumes as to where I stand and all I can say is; point taken! Since I am only a “friend” whenever I'm only needed then my presence in their life isn’t all that significant or as relevant as I had thought.

Last year I went through this very same logic with others and it was devastating, not only to me personally, but to the very core of who I am. I can handle rejection, but when the rejection becomes personal my world fades to dark and my heart turns cold. I feel cheated and used. If this is what caring for someone is all about then I’d rather live without for the rest of my life, because I will never be hurt like this again, ever! For certain, the pieces don't fit anymore.