I’m so over being lonely and isolated!

There was a day when I would spend time with friends and acquaintances. Being able to socialize and just hang out meant a great deal to me … I felt fulfilled, appreciated, and needed. As they contributed to my life, I did to theirs. But now, this has all come to a scratching halt.

Yes, there were two individuals I needed to remove from my life and that I’ve done … well, almost. Hopefully, this will be accomplished soon. A few have chosen to betray a long-time friendship simply because I would not comply with their expectations … these were really never “friends”. As for the rest, well, once the good times were over and I had to draw in the purse strings, they hit the high road.

So, what’s left? A few acquaintances … these individuals aren’t really friendship material, but they’re fun to hang out with. My closest friends Robyn, Lou, Georgie and Bob. And last but not least, my bestist buddy, Steven. If it wasn’t for these five extraordinary individuals, I would simply wither up. But the fact remains, I still feel very lonely. Its not that I don’t like being by myself cause I like having my own space. On the other hand, I miss having someone exceptionally special in my life. Someone with whom I can go for walks on the beach or go to the theatre. Someone to come home to. Someone to hold. Someone to cuddle and sleep next to. Just someone with whom I can share life with … this is what I miss and is lacking in my life. As for how to change this ... maybe e-Harmony? Forget Craigslist ... people get killed on that one.

As for being isolated, perhaps easier said than done at this time, but I just need to get a car and this would end my feelings of feeling like an island unto myself. It sucks not being able to get to wherever, whenever, and for whatever. Myrtle Beach isn’t transportation friendly and without your own transportation, confinement is the highlight of the day, weeks, months, and soon to be a year. I tell you what though, I’ve often thought about doing just about anything in order to acquire a car, but then the consequences would weigh heavily on my conscience and I wouldn’t be able to live with myself. So, I just pray that God will see fit to help in this department, but so far He seems to be ignoring my request.

Today my back feels 99% better … still a bit of achene's, but comparatively I’ll take what I’ve got. I also spent the late afternoon working in the yard … as some of you know, I love gardening. Anyway, I got both the front and back ends of the house done, as well as my front yard. The only thing left is the backside which I will do next. Other than that, its been a quiet relaxing Sunday. The only noise was my phone ringing … Georgie and Bob called. Will have to return their calls. As for my buddy, hm!, I’ll be lucky to hear from him between now and next year … LOL.

This evening I’ll be glued to the TV. The final five episodes of “Desperate House Wives” and “Brothers and Sister” will be on so my evening is, what shall I say, booked.

Today was not as sunny as yesterday, a bit overcast and for a while it seemed that it was going to rain. Nonetheless, it was a warm and beautiful day. And after yesterday's back burn it wouldn't have been wise for me to try and catch more color.

Until Tomorrow ...

I had to add ... OMG!!!! "Brothers and Sisters" is freaking burning up! Only four episodes left and the finally is going to be, I think, surprising! OBTW, the gay scene was, H-O-T! As for "Desperate House Wives" ... Ok, Edie's dead. A little to mellow dramatic for her character, but tear, tear.