It's All In The Head

For those of us who suffer from bipolar-manic depression, my heart goes out to you.

Over the years I have been in and out of psychiatrists' offices and taken thousands of dollars of medications. Just recently I had my dosages increased because I also suffer from PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder). I'm happy to say that angry outbursts and extreme tenseness are under control. This is not to say that I don't have moments when I feel anger simmering or extremely tense. However, I have learned and taught my mind to immediately recognize what, why, and decide not to react negatively or at all.

I do have bouts with my psychological issues. Sometimes it's easier than others. However, the worst is when I stand at the edge of my own abyss. This can last several days or weeks. It's like living in your own hell. Thankfully, with counseling and prescribed medication it does stabilize me ... well, lets say most of the time. Unfortunately, with counseling and medications, I have stepped over my line in the sand and entered into my dark place where my mind is occupied with many voices coming at me. And for the past two weeks I have been MIA.

For those of you that don't suffer with depression and/or PTSD, be thankful. On the other hand, it's important for you to be informed. Knowledge is power! Understand it and know its affects on those of us who live with it every single day of our lives.  Thankfully, those of us who endure these psychological issues are coming out of the closet in order to bring attention to this national crisis. We are survivors but many amongst us have chosen to leave this earth.