My back is on the way out!

I've been having back problems for a long time now. I would say for the last nine plus years. Anyway, in the last three years my back has gotten progressively worse and now my sciatic nerves in both legs is causing a great deal of pain, specially in my left leg. If I turn the wrong way or sit wrong my pain level goes from two too ten. And if I'm standing or walking, my leg will simply give out on me causing me to fall.

My physician, Dr. Singh, he's a neurosurgeon and pain management doctor, wants me to go see my surgeon for a surgery consult. I told Dr. Singh no, but would once I can't garden anymore. Since there is no guarantee that having surgery will improve my back, I'm just not ready to give up what quality of life I have should the surgery not improve it. I'm 66 years old. Certainly, I want to enjoy life pain free. But I don't want to spend my remaining years unable to walk or work for having my back cut open and my spine fused which could reduce my mobility. I know I'm getting old and the body becomes very needy. But I'm not ready to fall in to the old man bracket.

Yes, I know the consequences in putting off the surgery. I could very well paralyze myself. But one thing about me; I know my limits and I trust Dr. Singh. He's managed my pain well. But I know he can only do so much till he'll tell me it's time, period!

Oh, another thing! If I'm must have surgery I hope I'm in my own place.