Update!

Since my Steven fiasco, I’ve had some time to cool off and do some soul searching.

Yes, he owes me an explanation for how he chose to break all contact with me … how he went about it was cowardly and totally inconsistent with how he portrayed himself to be.

Yes, I had every right to be hurt and angry cause I really thought that he was a “true” friend and buddy.

Yes, I vented my frustrations and hurts which helped to easy my being extremely disappointed, not only with myself, but with him.

Yes, after a period of time I did consciously close the door to my heart and lock him out cause I truly felt betrayed.

However, now that it’s all done and said, and I’ve had time to recompose, I have to say that frankly Steven did me a favor … as much as it hurts, go figure, the son of a bitch did me a freaking favor. And because of it, my return to being who I used to be has been a warm home coming. I am free from under a relationship that, in all reality, had no happy ending.*

Frankly, now on the far side of the relationship, I really don’t want to hear why he abruptly walked out of my life … I don’t care! This doesn’t mean I don’t wish him well … I do! And I hope that one day he will find himself and in doing so find peace in his life.

As for myself, embarking on a new journey has opened up a new opportunity and I am going to focus forward and drive with caution with the hopes that once again I will find the one that will capture my heart. Thus far, he has captured my eye and attention … who knows!

I may be wiser and getting older, but one thing is certain, I ain’t dead!

*I will one day explain this.

Until Tomorrow ...

India.Arie - Ready For Love
~ From Ben ~