Though glad to be back at work, it wore me out! Nonetheless, work and co-workers helped to distract me from feeling like crap. It was a good thing!
On a personal note, I'm very disappointed in my buddy ... I seem to not matter! Let me explain.
Don’t get me wrong. I don’t expect anything other than a little bit of respect and thoughtfulness from anyone. It’s what I give and I expect it return. Maybe I'm asking to much, but deep in my heart, this is a code I live by. Now, I don’t expect this same thing from an acquaintance. An acquaintance is exactly that … an acquaintance. But a friend, I do expect the same courtesy. If you don’t have this level of respect for me, than a friend you can’t be.
Anyway, Wednesday I had my treatment. That evening I text my buddy letting him know all went well and that I was sick. Usually, he’ll call. But this time he didn’t respond. Then Thursday he sent me a text apologizing for not checking in on me. Still no contact. Well, this evening I sent him a text and so far no response. And honestly, I don’t think I’m gonna hear from him.
Needless to say, this part of my journey has been lonely and empty. My friends were there. My buddy … awol. I mean, what would it have hurt to give a five minute call or even a two second text … hey, you ok?, would have made all the difference. And so the point in apologizing was why? Am I missing something here?
I tell ya, things have so drastically changed since January. With lightening speed, my buddy’s becoming a stranger. And recently, I’m beginning to feel more like a fool!
On a personal note, I'm very disappointed in my buddy ... I seem to not matter! Let me explain.
Don’t get me wrong. I don’t expect anything other than a little bit of respect and thoughtfulness from anyone. It’s what I give and I expect it return. Maybe I'm asking to much, but deep in my heart, this is a code I live by. Now, I don’t expect this same thing from an acquaintance. An acquaintance is exactly that … an acquaintance. But a friend, I do expect the same courtesy. If you don’t have this level of respect for me, than a friend you can’t be.
Anyway, Wednesday I had my treatment. That evening I text my buddy letting him know all went well and that I was sick. Usually, he’ll call. But this time he didn’t respond. Then Thursday he sent me a text apologizing for not checking in on me. Still no contact. Well, this evening I sent him a text and so far no response. And honestly, I don’t think I’m gonna hear from him.
Needless to say, this part of my journey has been lonely and empty. My friends were there. My buddy … awol. I mean, what would it have hurt to give a five minute call or even a two second text … hey, you ok?, would have made all the difference. And so the point in apologizing was why? Am I missing something here?
I tell ya, things have so drastically changed since January. With lightening speed, my buddy’s becoming a stranger. And recently, I’m beginning to feel more like a fool!
To steal his words; “I ain’t gonna beg anyone to be my friend” is where I’m at. Right now I’m fighting for survival … I’ve got enough on my plate. Busy or not, you’re either a friend or not. Plain and simple! If this is not comfortable then Houston we've got a problem.
Until Tomorrow ...
Until Tomorrow ...
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